I Discover Michael Jackson is a M-A-N!

As I mentioned in my previous blog, my realization that Michael Jackson was a man hit me like a ton of bricks….it just seemed to come out of the blue….and it didn’t occur until about one month after his passing. I never thought of him as a male since I first heard of him when I was 13 and thinking, due to the PR spin, that he was only 8 or 9. Nope. I definitely did not think of him in a sexual way. In those days, I thought of myself as a “grown-up” of 13 while he was just a little kid, albeit a very talented one.

The next time Michael Jackson impacted my consciousness was with his music video, “Black or White” and, once again, his sexuality didn’t have any affect on me. I think I was still adjusting to his new look; getting used to the overall impression he created as an individual. Plus, I was very busy being a Mom, working and going to school while also taking care of my partner. I really didn’t have time to think about Michael Jackson, much less fantasize about him.

Between then and his passing, I heard various media reports on Michael but didn’t really pay them much attention since I had my own battles I had to fight, not to mention I figured the media was hyping whatever Michael did in such a major way to misdirect the public away from political things that people should have been paying attention to. Then there was the fact that a lot of the videos and articles about Michael, when they weren’t painting him as some monster, were portraying him as a big kid and I think this subconsciously reinforced my idea that he was way too young since I still didn’t know he was only a year younger than myself.

Now don’t get me wrong. It’s way cool that he liked having fun; but the way the media portrayed it, that’s all he did. They never really showed his serious side, never showed him working and in the act of creation, never really spoke to him about things that were dear to his heart, never covered his humanitarianism; or, if they did, I was too busy to scout them out and watch them. I do have to give Michael credit for playing with his super soakers outside. When my partner and children discovered super soakers, they played with them everywhere!

Inside the house, with the dog barking and running all over the furniture and the cats diving for cover, to outside the house to run around the yard, only to come back in. Needless to say, my job was to squawk at them and tell them to go outside. But we did other things with the kids such as playing video games….it was a family thing and we really liked playing Tomb Raider. I still play video games; my current favorite is Luxor 2 by Mumbo Jumbo. We also used to take the kids out for midnight strolls during the summer when it was too hot in the house. During these nightly forays, we’d take them to the playground and jungle gym or to climb trees on the golf course.

I think if there had been more balance in the coverage of Michael, people would have been more inclined to see what an intelligent, beautiful, gentle and talented man he was. But, alas! This was not to be since balanced coverage would not make the networks a pile of money. I think when I finally saw Michael Jackson as a man and not some androgynous being, was when I first saw the photos of him going to court during the 2005 trial.

I know the charges against him were serious having had my own dances with the CPS; but I didn’t look at the photos in that way since I hadn’t followed the trial. What I saw when I looked at the photos was a mature man who was extremely sexy. First off, I think being a Daddy agreed with him tremendously. Children have a way of making you realize there are little people depending on you; it matures you in a very subtle way and takes you outside of yourself. Secondly, I think it was the suits he wore. I love nothing better than a man in a suit; but, it’s not just the suit itself, it’s the way the man wearing it owns it.

My partner has a suit that, when he puts it on, I just want to take it off he looks so damned tasty in it! Michael was the same way…he owned the clothes he wore. We’ve all seen the guy in the suit or tuxedo who’s very uncomfortable and it shows. But what I found the sexiest about Michael Jackson was his mind. After his passing, I finally read “Moonwalk” and it told me a lot about his early years; but what really hooked me was his book “Dancing the Dream” - all I can say is that the words he wrote were so beautiful and profound. Then I learned about his technical savvy; his genius in creating; his very big heart and charitable contributions and I about melted.

I also learned about how he took the lemons of being burned in the Pepsi commercial and finding out he had vitiligo and turned them into the lemonade of a new Michael who came back stronger than ever. In fact, whatever the world threw at him, he caught and tossed right back at it whether it was health issues or nasty rumors in the media. And all the time he fought his own battles, he still took the time to be a strong crusader for those who were too weak to defend themselves and he constantly sought justice, peace and unity. What a package!

But the timing of all of my discoveries about Michael were also coupled with my partner losing his job and the other events I’ve listed plus I had the time to actually fantasize. Fantasies about Michael were/are an escape mechanism, a type of safety valve so I wouldn’t buckle under the things that were, and still are, happening in my real, everyday life. For that I am also grateful to Michael. His beauty, his kindness, his humanitarianism, his continually moving forward in the face of all opposition, in a way, gives me encouragement to do likewise.

All of this, in turn, made me wonder what his horoscope was like. I’ve never done one for a famous person before; I usually reserve these for family and close friends; but I was curious about Michael. So the following blogs will be Michael’s horoscope. From my research, the birth time of 11:53 p.m. feels right. However, I do them in a little bit different fashion. Since any one personality analysis doesn’t really cover the entire person, I use a combination of Numerology, Name Meanings, American Indian Astrology, Celtic Astrology, Chinese Astrology, Gems, Western Astrology, Tarot Reading and Playing Card Reading. My next blog will begin with how Numerology describes Michael.